Choose Begbie, choose stubbornness, choose rage and revenge, choose watching history repeat itself because it feels safe because otherwise there is nowhere else to go. Choose saying farewell to your own son because you knew deep down you love him to bits but you can only live a Kinski-esque manic life so you estranged him even more. Chose exhaust your life failing, failing again, hoping fail better.
Choose Rent Boy, choose to be addicted to something else, choose the loneliness of a long distance runner, choose addicted to endorphins. Choose being on a run by Begbie, ending up naturally high, laughing in front of a car bonnet. Choose reliving youth, but didn't choose Diane. (in other words, choose not choose Diane?)
Choose Spud, choose capturing both his fragility and resilience coming out of 20-year-worth of hardship and turmoil. His handwriting reminded me of Korine's, his performance reminded me of how it would look like if Julien Donkey-Boy ended up being an old man. (I think this time I have chosen Spud, our endearing Daniel. <3 )